Showing posts with label fear. Show all posts
Showing posts with label fear. Show all posts

Saturday

Still Saturday::who knows...



TODAY

Every morning we enter a new day. Who knows what the day will bring?

God knows.

Which is why he tells us not to be afraid. He has already gone ahead of us into the new day.
He knows the way,
what will happen,
all we'll need.

In the morning we can put our day in his hands.
And let him bring into our day whatever he has for us.

And then,
in the evening,
we give it back to him.

And trust him with all that happened in it.

Do not be afraid or discouraged,
for the Lord will personally go ahead of you.
He will be with you. 

DEUTERONOMY 31:8 (NLT)

Sally Lloyd-Jones, Thoughts to Make Your Heart Sing*, p. 172


Sandra Heska King - Still Saturday
*I bought this delightful book for my grandlittles, but I'm keeping one for myself, too.
Satisfy us each morning with your unfailing love,
so we may sing for joy to the end of our lives.
PSALM 90:14 (NLT)

Sunday

I {LOVE} Sunday::I am a child of God...


For you did not receive the spirit of slavery to fall back into fear, 
but you have received the Spirit of adoption as sons, 
by whom we cry, “Abba! Father!” 
 Romans 8:15



{With the Sunday Community at Lisha's #GiveMeGrace }

Wednesday

The bad news would be this...

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I've always admired my husband Louis' quick thinking. He's never without a wise or witty answer or comeback to everything. Sure, that sometimes gets him in trouble, with me anyway, but most of the time he's right on target.

At dinner last night, he told me that someone at work asked him, Do you want the good news or the bad news?

There's only one bad news, Louis said he answered, and that would be that Jesus isn't coming back and since I know that wouldn't be true, go ahead and tell me whatever you want.

I can only imagine the look on his co-worker's face, but what a great perspective, don't you think?

If God is sovereign in all my affairs, loves me with an everlasting love, is my strength and my shield, promises to only give me good things, and I know all of that to be true, then what have I to fear?

Where is the bad news?

The Lord is on my side; I will not fear.
What can man do to me?

Psalm 118.6

If God is for us, who can be against us?
Romans 8.31

So we can confidently say,
“The Lord is my helper;
I will not fear;
what can man do to me?”
Hebrews 13.6

Tuesday

31 Days::Day 30 - Peace. Be still...

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Peace. Be still. Jesus speaks to the storm and the winds stop and the seas calm...and he then rebukes the disciples who fail to trust Him.

All day long I think of this story from scripture we tell in lifegroup and I name my "storms" as the monster storm Sandy blows terror and destruction along the Atlantic coast.

Supersoaker Sandy, she's far to the north, but I know what it is to huddle in fear in the dark of night while hurricanes roar beyond boarded up windows or to be paralyzed by the terror that can grip a heart.

I fall asleep praying for those I know and love in Sandy's path, that Jesus will speak, Peace. Be Still, to the storm's rage and hearts' fear, and to the "storms" that can paralyze me.

Day 30 - Romans 16 {The God of peace will soon crush Satan under your feet. The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you. vs 20 }, finish couch cushions, sweep and mop floors.

31 Days of Just One Thing

Friday

What gives me courage...

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There's a place for healthy or respectful fear in my life - I do, after all, live in a lightning capital. It would be foolish to wander about Pollywog Creek as a storm approaches. The first roll of thunder and I'm inside before lightning can flash.  

But overcoming paralyzing, unhealthy fear has been one of my greatest challenges - fears fueled by deep insecurities and memories of real life-threatening, terrorizing experiences.  

I'm not fond of pain {or insects}, but there's something about holding my camera that gives me the courage to approach potentially painful things I'd otherwise avoid. 

It reminds me of how it's been with overcoming fear - how I've learned to pick up God's word put it between me and whatever is making me fearful, and the courage His word gives me to be bold and strong.

The verses God has given me are too numerous to mention, but one of the first verses I held close was this: 

In peace I will both lie down and sleep;
for you alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety.

Psalm 4.8 ESV
What gives you courage to face your fears?  Is there a particular verse or verses that speak directly to you and your fears? I'd love for you to share them with us here. 


Tuesday

To do it afraid...


Fear....


{The truth in this edited repost from my archives is one I need to be reminded of today.}

For that tiny moth atop that equally tiny flowerhead it's a long way to the ground - but for her wings.

It's a picture of faith,,I think - those wings to launch off into the deep - trusting that God will supply all the wing power needed for the jump.

In his message on Sunday, Pastor Eric reminded us that fear is the number one hindrance to doing what God asks us to do. It was a message meant for me.

My friend Sam added that we don't wait for fear to be overcome before we obey, but we push past our fear and build our faith by just doing it afraid

I confess an embarrassingly long list of fears that have hindered me - fear of failure, fear of rejection, fear of disappointing others, fear of causing others to stumble, fear of saying something stupid, fear of not being good enough - and so on.

In faith I'm wearing my faith-wings to jump out and do what I know God has called me to.

That's my chalkboard message to myself for the week: Do It Afraid.

What about you?

What did you hear in the message from your pastor that was meant for you - and how are you applying it this week?




Thursday

I need to say it again...







Radiant

I sought the Lord, and he answered me
and delivered me from all my fears.
Those who look to him are radiant,
and their faces shall never be ashamed
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~ Psalm 34.4-5 (ESV)



...for me.

Because when I catch my image in the mirror and see the ten years and ten pounds that RA and prednisone have added without mercy, "radiant" is not the word my heart speaks.  

That God declares that I am radiant has become more precious to me today than when those verses from Psalm 34 were my reality years ago - when in a season of darkness, with great compassion and mercy, God released me from decades of bondage to fears.  

I can't avoid the mirror. And unless God in His great sovereignty chooses to heal me, I can't control the effects of RA and prednisone, either. What I can do is take God at His Word, and know that what I see in the mirror is not what God sees, and it's only what God sees and says that is truth. 

In God's heart, I'm radiant. Not because of anything I say or do, but because it's what God says.   

I really do want to know what truth God is speaking into your heart these days...and I'd be honored to pray for you as you take Him at His Word.

{If you are participating in Holley Gerth's giveaway, don't forget - the deadline is midnight tonight.} 

Wednesday

Sleeping in peace...

Verde 10 August 10, 2010 The park by the river and the green Flower Power shop's window...
For several years, I fell asleep at night repeating a verse I'd memorized incorrectly: "I will lie down in peace and sleep alone, for You, O Lord, will keep me safe." I'll always believe the Lord allowed me to read and memorize that verse incorrectly because sleeping alone was my greatest fear.
(Yes. I know. I've bent my "30 Words or Less" rule yet again.)

Thursday

Life in the rural south, arthritic knees, late night ramblings and another quote...

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As the hunting buggy slowly putt-putted it's way down the rural road in front of our property the other day, I thought it was a perfect example of the pace of living we rural Florida natives most enjoy. I'm quite sure that the bent toward life in the slow lane is a character trait that was embedded in our DNA over the years our ancestors endured our hot and humid wetlands without the benefit of air-conditioning. Slow moving was a means of survival. For those of us now living on Pollywog Creek it is just pure pleasure. I was forced to leave our leisurely living for a day in "the city" with Emily today that included a date at the orthopedic surgeon's office for knee injections - which, by the way, were a breeze. I wouldn't lie to you, it did not hurt but the teeniest, tiniest bit, and hopefully I can explain more later. I'm embarrassed to tell you how much I have dreaded this appointment. Pain is not one of my favorite experiences and the multiple testimonies I've heard about just how painful these injections are not only contributed to my delay in scheduling an appointment to see an orthopedic surgeon, but greatly increased my anxiety in anticipation. Before I ever saw the doctor, my view of knee injections ranked with root canals as procedures to be avoided at great lengths. And great lengths I took. Remember last year when I went to my doctor for knee pain because Louis said we couldn't go on vacation until I saw a doctor about my knees and I ended up with a cardiac stress test, a false "heart attack" diagnosis, and surgery to remove my gallbladder without ever seeing the orthopedic surgeon? And we still went on vacation? Pretty clever of me, don't you think? By the way, New York City is no place for people with knee pain unless your money grows on trees and you have an unlimited supply of cab money - of which we had neither. And a 1200 mile car trip from south Florida to Texas by way of New Orleans is not only incredibly difficult on painful knees, but on fifty-something bodies one week past gallbladder surgery. Just in case you need to know. (I DID admit that I often learn things the hard way.) Louis casually mentioned once or twice about how I got my way last year and I pretended not to hear him, but as we began planning two exciting trips between now and the middle of May, the subject of seeing the orthopedic surgeon once again became an issue. And with an all-clear from the cardiologist and my gallbladder where ever it is unwanted gallbladders go, I was now out of excuses. Six weeks of visits to the orthopedic surgeon's office, blood work, x-rays and an MRI produced a diagnosis of moderately severe arthritis in both knees (thanks to crohn's, I'm told) and a torn meniscus from who knows what. Since I'm not exactly a youthful basketball star anxious to return to the court, my surgeon is hoping to avoid surgery on the torn meniscus for as long as possible. I LOVE my surgeon. You know what I'm thinking - dare I say it? Surgery does not fit neatly into my newly established schedule. (!!!!!!!) He would also like to avoid knee replacement surgery on both knees, if at all possible, and is treating the arthritis conservatively with an arthritis diet that combines the no-sugar, no-grain diet that is best at keeping my crohn's in remission with daily servings of foods like fresh pineapple and tart cherry juice concentrate (and a handful of supplements) that are rich in natural anti-inflammatory properties. After just six weeks I have experienced a significant improvement - which is great for avoiding surgery, but I still need the injections and today was the day I agreed to it. We leave for our first trip in just two days, and though I'm sure he could tell that I was hedging and procrastinating, even the surgeon agreed that waiting until today was an excellent idea. Did I happen to mention that I LOVE my surgeon?

I was secretly hoping that I would wake up this morning with a fever and in need of another day of recuperating at home that might actually extend until after we had to leave for our trip and I'd have to reschedule my injections for who knows when. Emily had a hair appointment, but she'd just have to go off on our exciting trip with her same hairdo because I'd just be too sick to drive to "the city." No such luck. A nervous stomach, a cough and runny nose, but no fever.

Well, wouldn't you know it. I just looked. It is 1:00 am and there is much laundry and cleaning and packing and birthday celebrating to be accomplished tomorrow, so my "knee saga" must come to an abrupt - but hopefully temporary - end. I'm absolutely blown away by God's grace and kindness and goodness and patience and mercy that He extends toward me in staggering abundance, and I cannot wait to tell you about it - if only I didn't need sleep.

In the meantime, I hope that you are as blessed as I was by this quote from Tullian Tchividjian - that had absolutely nothing to do with my knees when he wrote it, but had absolutely everything to do with my knees when I read it...

God is clearly up to something big. Don’t miss out. Don’t let fear of the unknown prevent you from this great adventure. ~ Tullian Tchividjian in "It's Unanimous" (emphasis mine)

Be sure to read the rest of the story and pray for the "great adventure" Pastor Tchividjian and his church are taking. For those of you who have been praying for me recently - BIG hugs and thanks. I needed to be much better today, and I was. So was my finger. I didn't even show it to the doctor. It doesn't look pretty, but I must have just severely bruised the knuckle under the lacerations and abrasions.

Prayer and daytime cold medicine got me through the day. I got my injections and Emily got the cutest hairdo. I wonder if she would mind if I took a picture while she slept. She's so gorgeous! Better not. Maybe tomorrow during birthday celebrations. Nick was 28 years old today and Emily will be 18 years old on Wednesday while we are off on our exciting trip. Can you guess where we are going? The weather there yesterday and today was frightful. Cold. Wintry mix of rain and snow and sleet, but the long-range forecast while we are there for Emily's birthday is...

March 18 - Sunny 43° - 69° 0% chance of rain
Can you guess where?